Growing up in a strict religious household, the idea of attending a Pride parade in Atlanta seemed like an impossible dream. My authentic self was always on the back burner, hidden behind a carefully constructed facade to appease my family and conform to their expectations. I never imagined getting to a space where I could openly celebrate who I truly am.
Guarded all my life, I navigated the world with a sense of caution, afraid to reveal myself truthfully for fear of rejection and judgment. The concept of “authenticity” was foreign to me. I would watch others “live out loud” and know I would never get to that place of freedom. I told myself countless times that keeping people around me was better than showing people who I truly am. The fear of loss kept me in the shadows, and I was okay with that.
When I started my #LifeAtATT in 2015, I showed up every day ready to be excellent but guarded. I wanted to maintain the facade, but my coworkers and some customers saw right through me. Their only wish for me was to become my authentic self. They could see the light at the end of the tunnel for me, but I could not.
Years later, I found myself living in Nashville, yet emotionally scarred. My career was successful, but my personal life was in ruins. I started therapy (a significant shoutout to AT&T’s EAP services), and I realized that it was time to stop being the supporting actor in my own life story. It was finally time to be ME. I began the journey of coming out to those around me. Although I experienced a few hurtful moments from those close to me, the love and support I received far outweighed the negative. I celebrated myself and thought that this was the end. This was what freedom felt like. However, it was only a glimpse. The true experience would later come.
Currently, I assist with numerous Diversity and Inclusion projects for my market. Due to the nature of my work, I was asked if I wanted to support the Atlanta Pride Parade alongside LEAGUE at AT&T. I agreed. I knew that it was essential to show up for the LGBTQIA+ community. However, life has a funny way of positioning me in a space to understand that the community was waiting for me!
As I stepped onto the streets of Atlanta for my first Pride parade, I felt a surge of emotions rush through me. It wasn’t just about the vibrant colors and the lively atmosphere; it was about finally embracing my authentic self. Surrounded by a sea of rainbow flags and smiling faces, I realized this was a place where I could truly be myself without fear or judgment. I was positioned on the ground next to the LEAGUE at AT&T float. As I turned the corner for the first part of the parade route, I was amazed at how comfortable I was. The cheers and the waves hyped me up. I immediately went to WERK!
As the parade moved through the city streets, I couldn’t help but reflect on my journey to this moment. From my days as a hesitant Retail Sales Consultant to finding a supportive community within my company, each step has brought me closer to embracing who I truly am. It brought tears to my eyes to reflect on my journey and finally get to a space where I understand and live in FREEDOM. It was empowering to see my coworkers standing proudly beside me, not just as colleagues but as friends who had accepted me for exactly who I was. Their unwavering support gave me the courage to embrace and celebrate my identity without reservation.
As the day drew to a close and the sun dipped below the horizon, I felt a profound gratitude. I was grateful for the opportunity to march in the Pride parade, surrounded by love and acceptance. But more than that, I was thankful for AT&T for providing a safe and inclusive space where I could be my authentic self without fear. At that moment, as I danced beneath the rainbow-colored lights, I knew I was exactly where I was meant to be.
For anyone who is reading and wondering, “Will this ever be me?” I am a testament that the journey is what you make it and will always lead you to a place of peace and freedom. If you take the first step, you’ll find that you are not alone.
Alexa, play the entire “Renaissance” album by Beyoncé!
Take the first step. Begin your #LifeAtATT journey
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